Illumination

“ Look out into the universe and contemplate the glory of God.  Observe the stars, millions of them, twinkling in the night sky, all with a message of unity, part of the very nature of God” – Sai Baba

  Standing outside on a recent December night, I inhaled the cool,  crisp air. I stared into the  clear winter sky blanketed  with millions of  stars.  Their illumination was beautiful and so perfect. Its hard not to stare into a world that goes on for light years and not feel small and somewhat insignificant. I’ve been present in this world for such a small period of time  compared to those stars who have watched over generations of people for many  years.

   The threshold of a new year is approaching , and I have no new years resolutions to list and no  major tasks or  projects I plan to tackle.  I have found the resolutions I tend to make are too lofty or unattainable to meet.

“ I will only indulge in chocolate once a week” or “ I will get up 30 minutes earlier  so I’m not so rushed every morning”.  I laugh just thinking of the thought of me being “early” for anything.

Deciding what I plan to accomplish each year, has also proved unfruitful. I was to be married for 5 years to embark upon our extreme thirst for travel and then start family planning. However, life had other plans. My best friend and mother was taken from me 4 years into our marriage. This rocked my world and put baby planning on hold. As well as the effect the poor economy had on my pocket book and now my husbands change in career field.

One of life’s lessons I seem to be continually schooled in is, God has a plan for me. Making my own plans without His involvement can be both fruitless and frustrating.

I am a planner at heart. At 20 years old , I had projected  where I should be career , family and travel wise at the end of each decade till retirement.  Things can be planned to a point and but the God factor plays a big part.

As of late, I have been praying for “Peace”. Peace of mind, Peace of the heart, and peace for the  violent state of our  world.

I can say for the little person that I am I can stress a big deal and praying for peace has chilled me out.   I don’t fear the unknown as much as I had before.

I can look up into the brilliant night sky, observing all the constellations that many have mapped out before me, and feel that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be at this time in my life. This is a peaceful state to be in. It also encourages me to be excited to wonder, when I look up into the winter sky of 2013 what will life have in store for me.

“ For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream” – Vincent Van Gogh

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